The Briefest of Posts

This will be short, I have less than 24 hours to pack and prepare for being admitted to the unit.

I got the call five minutes ago.
It’s been a hell of a week, I spent monday at the hospital being treated for a kidney infection and dehydration and now this.

I.Am.In.Shock.

I am terrified, but relieved and grateful.

Thank you all soooo much for your support, I have NO idea when I’ll be back, I won’t have internet on the unit,

but as soon as I am well, I will be back, blogging with a vengance.

(If you’d like to write to me, drop me an e-mail today and I’ll pass on my address)

weekend

I’ll start this post with yesterday’s outfit, and a warning. If you don’t want to read a “deep” post about my life right now then please just close my blog and pretend it doesn’t exist, because you will be bored or may be inspired to leave anonymous hate…and well, we don’t want that ;)

We’ve had glorious weather here yesterday and today, like, the first proper hot days of the year. There was no doubt in my mind that it was a maxi dress day…the swishy breeze created when walking in one is the most amazing feeling and it was perfectly suited to lazing around in the garden.

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And now on to the heavier side to this post;

This week I have finally admitted [mainly to myself] that I am not coping very well and things have been more of a struggle than ever.
I wish I could put in to words how exhausting it is to be in this state of limbo. Desperate for change but to weary and controlled to fight on my own anymore, and no clear idea of when a hospital bed will open up.

I sleep. A lot of the day. And when I am awake I am spending time with family and friends when I can, or just…restless, and not really able to concentrate, hence the lesser frequency of blog comments and posts.

It’s going to be this way for a while, and I do feel bad because I miss blogging every day, and I miss commenting on everyone’s posts.
I guess what I wanted to say was, to those of you who have stuck by me, left kind words in the form of comments and e-mails, THANK YOU, and I’m sorry I’ve not been able to respond to your kindness as much as you deserve.
I’d fully expect, and understand if you abandoned ship and stopped reading and following my blog completley, and I have been overwhelmed by the love and compassion shown.
I will still endevour to post and comment as often as I can, but if I can’t, then please know you are ALL tresured (with a few anonymous exceptions) and all in my thoughts.

I can’t wait to be on the other side of this hell and back to being ME. I have so many hopes and dreams for life
and directions I want to take this blog in, among other things. I’m not giving up, I’m just stepping back for a while.

Sorry, this blog has gone from outfit posts and random things to a blog about my illness which I never intended, but then, life doesn’t always work the way it should. It’ll be a thing of the past soon enough.

Have a wonderful weekend, make the most of the weather…and don’t forget the suncream!

xxx

P.S. I so caved in and ordered the Essie polish from my last post!

Three Wishes Thursday

If I had the funds, here is what I’d be buying this week…

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Essie Nail Polish in Lapis of Luxury (from the resort collection). Words cannot not describe how much I want/need this colour in my life!

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French Connection denim dress with rope tie detail. This just screams lazy summer days, bare legs and golden skin to me.

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Bebaroque Sailor print tights. If only I had the kind of money that allowed me to indulge in these. I am so utterly smitten.

[all product photos from www.asos.com]

I’m still feeling…un-inspired, I think I might make this a regular feature.
What are you lusting after this week?

pastel

Hello, I hope your week is getting off to a good start! Just a quick outfit post today, I’m feeling a bit un-inspired in terms of blogging right now and don’t have much to say or show for myself.

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The skirt I got when I went shopping the other weekend, from Primark. The bunny vest is from New Look and was a present from my parents this weekend :)
Cardigan, well, I’ve had that about four years now, I think it’s from H&M though. On my feet I’ll be wearing nude and black lace flats.

Off to sit in the garden now, making the most of the gorgeous weather we have at the moment.

I will attempt to catch up with blogs during this week, I’m somewhat lacking the ability to form coherent comments though…but I am at the very least, reading your posts.

xxx

Lucy Jay

Spring is the time for colour, after the mundane dullness of the Winter months. Accessories are the perfect way to ease yourself in, and these amazing scarves by designer Lucy Jay are quite simply, awesome.

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I love how Lucy encourages creativeness when wearing her scarves, from tops to woven through this seasons braids, anything goes. I’m wondering how many different ways we could come up with? Maybe one day I can experiment!

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My two favourite designs, from her website are

“Claire”
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and “Lucy”

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You can check the others out here…and tell me your favourite

Lucy’s scarves are made from 100% silk crepe de chine and can be purchased from no-one.co.uk (in store now) and farfetch.com within the the next few weeks. They cost £125 each, and will also soon be available to buy direct from her website.

To get the latest updates on Lucy Jay and her fabulous creative talent, you can;
Follow her blog
or Stalk her on Twitter

xxx