EATING DISORDERS AWARENESS WEEK 2018

It’s Eating Disorders Awareness week once more and I’m pleased to say that I am in a very different place to where I was when I was writing last years post. This illness has taken 15, nearly 16 years of my life and whilst I may now firmly be on the road to recovery it still affects and impacts my day to day living, and probably always will.

This year the focus of Eating Disorders Awareness week is “Why Wait?” and this is something I feel incredibly strongly about.

I waited, I waited a good three years before seeking any help despite experiencing many of the physical and psychological symptoms. Those three years were probably some of the loneliest and most confusing of my life, and whilst speaking out and asking for support didn’t fix it, it didn’t hold all of the answers but it took away that desolation and desperation that comes with being so entrenched in something that as of yet didn’t even have a name.

On average 149 weeks (that’s almost three years) passes before those experiencing symptoms of an eating disorder seek help. I think there’s many reasons for this, from not knowing where to get the help from, being afraid of being dismissed or judged to quite simply not recognising the signs.
In a YouGov survey conducted for EDAW, more than one in three adults (34%) in the UK, who gave an answer, could not name any signs or symptoms of eating disorders. Find out more about the signs of an eating disorder.

Research has proven that the sooner someone seeks help for an eating disorder the more likely it is they will make a full, and faster recovery than those who wait. Hindsight is a wonderful thing and looking back I wish I could have made 15 year old me speak up when I first realised something wasn’t right.

The “Why Wait?” campaign is something I strongly believe in. Last year I tackled one of my biggest fears and went in to my old school to talk to students about why it’s so important to seek help sooner rather than later. Public speaking is one of my greatest fears and hurdles but I would do it again a thousand times over if it meant that even one person felt able to speak out.

Tomorrow, Tuesday 27th February Parliament will be debating eating disorders and early intervention and Beat are calling on the Government to extend the current waiting times targets that exist for CAMHS in England, to ensure people of all ages are able to access eating disorder treatment as soon as they need it. I, among many others petitioned their MP to attend and I await the outcome with baited breath.
Lack of services both to children, teenagers and adults still remains the biggest barrier to people getting the help and support they need when they need it most. It should never be a case of needing to reach death’s door before you can access treatment, playing Russian Roulette with your life just to get someone to listen? Not cool.

That being said, I really do believe it’s never too late to reach out. For support, for therapy, for intensive treatment or just to feel less alone.
For anyone who is wondering where to turn to, what to say or where to go then check out the Beat website- you can also find out more about Eating Disorders Awareness week, how to support someone with an eating disorder and how you can fundraise for or support Beat and their important work going forth.

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Feeling Dreamy

Wow, never in the whole time I’ve been blogging have I had so little time to, well, blog. But then again, never in the whole time I’ve been blogging have I been working proper full time hours so it really shouldn’t have come as such a surprise to me.
I’m just heading in to my second week of actual full time, grown up job hours which may seem like nothing for most people, but to me, this is the first time in my life I’ve had the capacity to do it- I’m both physically and mentally well enough to handle a demanding job and I don’t have to factor in multiple weekly appointments and obligations that previously made full time impossible.I wasn’t even sure I’d have anything to post this week- taking photos and having time to sort them and write a post to go with them has been fairly low on the priority list (that and I’ve been exhausted every evening for the last seven days) but as luck would have it I found a set of photos languishing on my laptop, so ta-da…a blog post.

Top: Monki | Skirt: New Look | Boots: Wallis

I’m starting to find a routine and a bit of a work life balance now so hopefully I’ll be able to improve on my rate of blog posts in the not too distant future. I can’t wait for lighter evenings- both from a getting photos point of view and a feeling less like going straight to bed when I get home from work one.

It took my ages to get round to wearing this Monki top. It was a bit of an impulse buy and I wasn’t sure about the style once I got it home. I’m glad I didn’t return it though, now I’ve given it a chance it’s become a firm favourite and has taught me that I really ought to broaden my horizons when it comes to tops and jumpers.

Hopefully next weekend Mum and I are heading in to Bristol for a much needed catch up (I barely see her these days) and some retail therapy. I’m looking forward to a wardrobe refresh as we approach a new season, and as I can finally justify new clothes. I’m struggling to feel inspired by what I wear lately, my body confidence is through the floor, and my heart sinks every time I think of the weight I still need to gain…hopefully a good spell of girl time with Christmas money at my disposal will help give me a much needed boost on that front. As much as everything else in my life is falling in to place, my internal demons are going wild trying to drag me down and convince me I don’t deserve this. What better way to silence them than with a new set of flattering outfits? Safe in the knowledge that when I outgrow them as my recovery progresses I am now in a position financially to replace them guilt free.

Sorry for such a random assortment of a post, this is the trouble with infrequent blogging I find! Anyway, let me know what’s new with you guys in the comments? I’ll be doing my best to catch up with everyone’s blogs during my evenings this week.

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To the Moon and Back

In my last outfit post I mentioned my current obsession with all things celestial, and luckily for me (and less so for my bank balance) the shops are currently awash with space themed prints.

During a recent browsing session I happened across THE most perfect dress from Joanie Clothing and tweeted about my love for it. A few days later, on the very day I was going to ask Bob if he’d like to buy it for me for Christmas, Joanie Clothing got in touch and offered to send me the dress to feature on my blog (insert pun about the stars aligning here).

Kate Star Print Dress c/o Joanie Clothing

The Kate dress is a dream- amazing print aside, the cut and fit is just spot on. This is the first piece I’ve ever owned from Joanie Clothing and, as I’m currently having some massive struggles with body image I had no idea what size to go for. In the end I went for my normal size (which in my head would be far too small for me) and luckily it fits like a dream. The shape of the dress is super flattering too and it’s probably the first item of clothing I’ve put on in ages that instantly made me feel good.

I paired the dress with my rose gold ankle boots from River Island- and made the dubious decision to wear black tights. In hindsight this was potentially a mistake, but you live and learn.

This is the perfect dress to wear over the Christmas and New Year period, which is now pretty much upon us. For the first time in years I’m actually really excited for the festive season and I have plenty of things planned for which this dress will be the perfect fit.

This week looks like it’s going to be a manic one with work so this may well be (but hopefully won’t be) my last post before Christmas…hopefully I’ll manage to squish in a post or two between work and play – no time for rest this week! If not then I’ll be back with an end of year round up before the clock strikes midnight on the 31st.

Are there any prints you’re obsessed with lately? Or any brands? I’ve only recently discovered Joanie Clothing and my wish list is ten miles long.

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Rocket Man

My latest print obsession involves all things space- from moons and stars to spaceships and rockets, if it’s even vaguely related to outer space I want it.

This directly ties in with my latest shopping obsession, a store I found via Facebook called Thunder Egg- there have been a couple of space related pieces I’ve been coveting since I first discovered the store, so when payday yielded a little financial surprise I wasted no time in ordering both of them.

Hat: Marks and Spencer (here) | Jumper: Thunder Egg (here) | Skirt: Monki (here) | Boots: Banana Republic

The jumper is part of a unisex range by the brand Run and Fly and I just love it- how great is that print? I’ll share my second purchase from the site soon, if you haven’t already checked out Thunder Egg then I practically insist that you must. I went for the medium for a slouchy fit and I’ve basically lived in it since it’s arrival. I actually bought the cord skirt from Monki specifically with this jumper in mind, although I have wanted a cord skirt for a long time so it wasn’t entirely based on one item of clothing! The hat is also a new addition to my wardrobe (I appear to have spent a lot of time shopping lately) and was an early Christmas present from Bob when we ventured over to Bath for the Christmas Markets. It was so bitterly cold we decided to exchange the hats we’d bought each other early and I’m pretty obsessed with this rose gold finish.

It’s all been a bit quiet on the blogging front lately and it will probably remain that way now until the new year. Life is exciting and busy and chaotic and time to create content is short. I’ve also not felt brilliantly inspired in terms of content, although I have plenty of plans as to which direction I want to take the blog in for 2018.

I’m slowly but surely getting back my confidence in terms of outfit photos so those will be a big feature next year, as well as more food related content and general lifestyle. Things have changed beyond all recognition over the last twelve months and now I’m coming to terms with it it’s time to bring it in to my hobby.

Anyway,
in two weeks time it will be Christmas Day- how crazy is that? This is the first year in a very long time I’ve been genuinely excited for Christmas so I’m savouring every second of this December.

Are you feeling festive yet?

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The New Pinafore

Look back at my outfit post archive and you’ll probably notice that I have a bit of a thing for pinafore dresses- typically of the mini dress, dungaree style variety that is ten-a-penny these days.

On a recent shopping trip with Mum we were browsing in Monki (of course) and found the perfect new pinafore for my collection- a step away from tradition with it’s midi length and over-sized cut this seemed like the perfect way to update my wardrobe whilst sticking to what I know and love.

Dress: Monki (here) | Velvet Tee: New Look (here) | Boots: Daniel Footwear

I’m always happy to see Velvet appear in the shops at this time of year, it’s one of my favourite textures to wear and this teal tee from New Look is a bargainous (£12.99) update for both smart and casual. I’m not really sure where I’m at with my personal style at the moment, it seems to have taken a bit of a back seat as I’ve been coming to terms with being at a very new health, and therefore weight territory in this journey called recovery from anorexia and most recently I’ve taken to hiding away in anything that, well, hides me.

In the mean time I’m really enjoying outfits like this as a bridge between wanting to hide and still wanting to look semi like I’ve bothered. I’m looking forward to layering this dress with some chunky knits now the weather is turning much colder. And I’m looking forward to a fresh attitude to my body, to my health and to blogging in 2018. I plan to finish this year by coasting through, meeting the last few goals that need to be met- next year is all about actually living, building upon who I am and increasing my confidence and hopefully getting more inspired with blogging to bring about some fresh content, a new look and a new attitude.

Watch this space – a promise or a threat?

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